If You Marry Me

dhani
3 min readJul 23, 2021
Oleh Tampan Destawan

If you marry me, you might not sleep well. I snore a lot. But I promise you, I will hold you tight and cuddle you more than I hug my Pillow.

Expect a lot of tears. I cry easily. I will read books, watch movies, listen to musics, and sometimes, a lot of times, cry because of it.

I have anxiety and sometimes it takes the best of me. I forgot things if I’m anxious. But Iwill do anything to be better for you.

I eat a lot. But I also cook a lot. Food is my love language. We will eat good food, we will find places to go, and we will enjoy our time together.

Sometimes I just want to stay in bed. Doing nothing. There are will be nights when I’m curled up on a ball on the floor and I won’t talk to anyone.

If you marry me, I will embarrass myself and laugh with you at the stupid things I do. Sometimes I will send you cute picture of a cat or dog.

Please understand that I am clumsy at times. I’ll forget birthdays, anniversaries, special events, and maybe I will caused trouble because of this.

My heart is very guarded. I hurt my self with my own expectations. But I will share everything with you if we decide to be a partner.

Like I said before, I have social anxiety, it might not seem like it at first, I might be look cool, but I can’t even spell my name right if I’m in front of people.

If you marry me you will hear a lot of different music, you might ask me about something and I will geek out and over-explaining things for you. Not constantly but every so often.

I hope you understand that we may not be in touch all day but I will try my best to talk to you everyday. Just expect a lot of stupid obscure meme from me.

I’ll respect you and the decisions you make regardless of my personal feelings on the matter. Because it’s our life, we will find a common ground for every fight we have.

Sometimes I need you to remind me that you love me; I have this crazy obsession that everyone dislikes me. I have poor trust on myself.

I will ask you to go to book store with me. I’ll hold your hand whenever possible, even if our hands get sweaty. And I will treat u ice cream after that.

You will find me read a book, get bored of it, read more book, and sometimes buy more books. I will read my favorite line for you. And we will have a big library in our house.

If you marry me I will grab your butt a lot, I will tease you, kiss you, makes you feel precious and makes every desire you want come true.

I won’t let anyone make you feel uncomfortable. I’ll pull you closer to me when I wake up in the middle of the night.

We will fight a lot, argue a lot, but eventually we will agree to disagree. But most of time, we will find a way to communicate our need.

So please, please, be nice to yourself. I will wait.

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dhani
dhani

Written by dhani

Spinning tales with the remnants of broken hearts, because why waste good pain?

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