For A.

2 min readDec 30, 2021
The Promenade; Landscape with Cypresses (1897) painting in high resolution by Henri-Edmond Cross. Original from The Cleveland Museum of Art. Digitally enhanced by rawpixel.

I’m sorry for the mistakes I made. It was wrong and I shouldn’t start relationship when I’m not ready. I’ve made a lot bad choices in my life. I’m not proud of a lot things I’ve done. And I changed myself. I’m no longer the person I used to be. And I hope you can forgive me.

I know I’ve made some big mistakes in the past. I’m working very hard on becoming a better person and not repeating this behaviour. If you are unable to sincerely forgive me and move on from my past, I completely understand and don’t blame you.

And I’d like to think that if we never meet again. I hope you are happier. One day you will look back in time we spent together, as once a lover, a friend. I hope you’ll remember me as someone who loved you the best they could.

Even if it wasn’t always what you needed or wanted. I’d like to think you will remember me fondly, as somebody you could’ve spent your whole life with. If only the timing had been right. If only the situations was right.

And I’d like to think that if we never speak again. I want you to forgive my mistakes. My flaws. That I’m a human being. And willing to change myself. One day you’ll look back on me, and see me as a better person.

I want you to believe me that every person that’s ever come into our life was for a reason. But that also means believing that every time someone left, it was for an equally important lesson. I just hope that some break up didn’t hurt too much.

I’m sorry.